Just a message to confirm I am still alive. 

I still stalk all of you through my daily reading of my friends page, so plase don't unfriend me. 

Then I'd have to stalk you in the flesh.

Economist comes in a dismal 28th. My actual job comes in 12th. I'm too lazy to foramt.

1.
Hotel Manager

2.
Bank Manager

3.
Management Consultant

4.
Bed and Breakfast Proprietor

5.
Operations Research Analyst

6.
Auditor

7.
Hotel Desk Clerk

8.
Personal Financial Planner

9.
Marketing Specialist

10.
Health Care Administrator

11.
Association Manager

12.
Restaurant Manager <lj-cut>

13.
Anthropologist

14.
Caterer

15.
Money Manager

16.
Certified Public Accountant

17.
Actuary

18.
Research Analyst (Financial)

19.
Logistics Specialist

20.
Economic Development Officer

21.
Mortgage Broker

22.
Corporate / Commercial Lawyer

23.
Lobbyist

24.
Family and Consumer Scientist

25.
Investment Banker

26.
Archivist

27.
Politician

28.
Economist

29.
Lifeguard

30.
Lawyer

31.
Criminal Lawyer

32.
Civil Litigator

33.
Customs Broker

34.
Retail Buyer

35.
Historian

36.
Judge

37.
Customer Service Representative

38.
Criminologist

39.
Wedding Planner

40.
Stylist  </lj-cut>

So, chicarita, your LiveJournal reveals...



You are... 0% unique and 30% herdlike
(partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing).
When it comes to friends you are normal. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are wary of trusting strangers.

Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is intellectual.

Your overall weirdness is: 14

(The average level of weirdness is: 27.
You are weirder than 25% of other LJers.)

Find out what your weirdness level is!

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Every year or so, I hunt down this test from MethodX.
And every year, I get the same result:

You are a Sage, characterized by a thinking or head spirituality. You value responsibility, logic, and order. Maybe that's why you were voted "Most Dependable" by your high school classmates. Structure and organization are important to you. What would the world be like without you? Chaos, that's what! Your favorite words include should, ought, and be prepared. What makes you feel warm and fuzzy? Like Tevye from Fiddler on the Roof it's tradition! tradition! tradition!

Because you love words, written or spoken, you enjoy a good lecture, serious discussions, and theological reflection. Prayer for you usually is verbal. You thrive on activity and gatherings of people, such as study groups. Sages on retreat likely would fill every day with planned activities, leaving little time for silence or solitude.

We need Sages for your clear thinking and orderly ways. You pay attention to details that others overlook. Sages make contributions to education, publishing, and theology. You often are the ones who feel a duty to serve, give, care, and share with the rest of us.

On the other hand, sometimes you seem unfeeling, too intellectual, or dry. Can you say "dogmatic"? You may need to experience the freedom of breaking a rule or two every now and then. God's grace covers Sages too, you know!

So, why do I continue to hunt it down and take it year after year?

Because I'd really rather be a mystic.

Tim's a mystic, and I'm jealous.

I don't want to be just like Tim when I grow up (we're already alike enough as it is thankyouverymuch), but I do want to be like my very favorite mystic, Thomas Merton.

I don't remember exactly how it was that I stumbled upon Merton. I think Tim must have mentioned the name so often that when I saw the book on the shelf, my hand reached out of its own accord and snatched it off the shelf.

What I do remember is how enthralled I was by the Seven Storey Mountain. I would read it on my long train rides into Boston, sometimes missing my stop and having to trek back down Comm Ave, past the GSU and to my Bible class, the October wind turning my ears and cheeks the color of my favorite leaves.

It was fitting, really. I read the book as the trees were preparing to die for the winter, to be reborn in the spring. My Catholicity followed almost the same arc. What had died and been lying dormant for a long winter came back to life that spring, and it was mostly Merton's fault.

My Mormonism died with my old self that winter and it's never really been the same.

They say that Baptism leaves an indeible mark on your soul, and the joke goes that no one knows what it looks like, but it sure burns brightly in Hell.

But I think it burns brightly in the here and now, too, somehow overshadowing all further attempts at spirituality that aren't quite Catholic/catholic enough.

Thank you WSC for allowing me to play on lj instead of paying attention to this god-awful English Comp class. I really shouldn't have to take it.

You know how they always talk about how smart people in dumb classes are just do bored they'd rather be tortured than sit in the class? Okay, so that is not how they usually put it, but that is how I feel.

I really am turning into a lberal wingnut (or is that moonbat? I forget which is which.). I watched Real Time with Bill Maher last night. I wouldn't normally, but I'm a Bradley Whitford fan girl.

I stayed up until one watching season three of the West Wing, so I am incredibly tired, but the seeing Bradley Whitford made me want to see more.

Lucky for me, Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip is on tonight, so I get to see him some more.

Fangrrrl.

But I love Patrick Dempsey more.

McFangrrrrl

I think I should start using this again.

Why? Because there is a boy, and this thing has privacy settings.

I'll save the blog for seriousness.

LJ Interests meme results

1. boston:
   Of course I'm interested in Boston! That's the place where they wave mexican flags in the Commons, in order to get the "right" to be AMERICANS.
2. courage:
   Courage is rad, man. I wish I had some.
3. grey's anatomy:
   Two words. Patrick. Dempsey.
4. honor:
   Honor is one of those long lost virtues that was around when your grandfather's grandfather's grandfather's grandfather was born.
5. kissing:
   Kissing is what makes life tolerable. Especially when kissing Patrick Dempsey.
6. nanowrimo:
   nanowrimo is that competition I lost two years in a row.
   
   I think I'll stick to vignettes.
7. poetry:
   Poetry is kissing Patrick Dempsey.
8. rob lowe:
   Rob Lowe used to be the hottest man ever. And then I discovered Patrick Dempsey.
9. sensuality:
   Sensuality is the sweater of swoon.
10. vanilla:
    Rob Lowe is so vanilla... compared to Dr. McDreamy.

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.

Jen is headed back to England, and I am sad.

But we had a really good time while she was here. On Christmas Eve, we played Harry Potter Trivia and Trivial Pursuit. She apparently has the entirety of the book photostatically copied into her mind. She killed me twice in the former, while I was the victor in the latter.

There's nothing I like more than a good game of Trivial Pursuit.

Except of course, for food.

Food marked the holiday for me, as it does every year. Though I am grateful for presents, I revel in giving them rather than recieving. Choosing gifts for others causes me great anxiety. I always want to get the perfect gift to suit the reciever. The joy comes for me in finding that I chose correctly.

And from all accounts, it appears I have chosen well. Thus, I am well pleased.

We had Christmas at my Dad's new house this year. He lives on a farm with his family now, though he hasn't traded his shingles and nails for a milking stool and pails.

It's beautiful and they seem so happy and it makes my heart glad. My father is a great guy, and though we don't have a relationship as such, I wish we did. We're going to make an effort at that by going to dinner tonight. The whole family.

The day after Christmas was another Jen and Crystal day. We went to our favorite Chinese resturant and had Tofu. This place has the best tofu I have ever had. We get it every chance we have. It did not dissapoint.

We drove in the Wal*Mart parking lot and promptly drove out. Nothing was so important to attain at that moment that we'd sacrifice our sanity to get it.

Nest, we considered a movie before discovering our tastes were too divergent. All my suggestions were met with a face, as were hers.

So, rental it was.

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead was highly entertaining. Good fun.

And then it was time for us to part. Until April or May, I am afraid.

To mourn our parting, I watched Mobsters and Mormons. Not bad by Mollywood standards. I'm going to watch Sons of Provo tonight. What can I say? I'm a sucker for kitsch.

Getting back into a spiritual swing is interesting. I'm finding myself with all of these questions, but they don't cause me panic. Just wonderment.

Imagine that.

You know, I've always thought Katie Holmes was pretty. I didn't think I looked like her. :P

I ran my picture through that Face Recognition thingy that tupelo posted, and here were my results:

Natalie Portman
Emma Watson
Condeleezza Rice
Christina Ricci
Katie Holmes
Ingrid Bergman

... is to get on and ride.

It's funny how easy it is to slip into old patterns again.

What made this clear to me is rather mundane.

It was scripture study.

I sat down to study a chapter and about half way through, it hit me: I do this the exact way I have always done it.

The reason this is striking to me is that I don't study normal books in the same way I used to. During my hiatus from college, I discovered that part of my problem was the manner in which I studied and altered my habits.

But when I sit down with the scriptures, there is something familiar and homey about the whole process.

I spent a few months reading the Book of Mormon, but I haven't studied any scripture in a few years.

In my pattern, study is a sign of commitment. I should have known that all those false starts wouldn't work out--the commitment wasn't there.

And it was mostly a matter of fear.

I think I've finally discovered that it doesn't matter that I am horribly inadequate. This moment came because of something that was said on the forums that probably didn't set off many epiphanies, but it did cause at least one.

The path that I am on is my own. Life shouldn't be a series of comparisons btween me and everyone else. I am the standard against which I should be judging myself. Am I better than yesterday? Yes? Then keep going. No? Then reassess.

Marcus and I were talking about how there are so many different paths and it's hard to know which one is correct, even when we've already chosen.

I think that if we find ourselves on the wrong path, we have to get off, no matter how much time we've spent on it, because, remember kiddies, sunk costs are irrelavent.

I can hardly believe that in five short hours my semester is really over. All the work, all the worry, over.

Was it successful? By most counts, yes.

I went to class regularly. This ought to be a no brainer, but in days past it was the exception rather than the rule.

I did well in my classes. The grades, which will be the final determinant of how well 'well' was, aren't in yet, but I suspect they will confirm the wellness.

I found a passion. I had once thought philosophy was my passion, and then Christian studies. And while I still pick up a bit of Hume and Tillich every now and again, I know these aren't my life.

How?

Understanding. I understand philosophy and religion at a superficial level. Nothing deep enough to teach. I would sit at my desk and shudder to think what a trial Grad school would be, trying to grasp at things I had no business touching.

Now, I wish that we had TAs here at WSC. I can see myself as one, at least for Micro. I guess I'll settle for toturing for now.

Though I'm two years removed from it, I'm looking forward to grad school. To getting deeper into the subject than even a BA allows. I can see myself succeeding in something.

And that's huge.

I'm taken to fits of inadequacy. Of comparing myself to people who are smarter, prettier, better. I don't try new things, because I fear failure.

And that's a bit silly, don't you think?

I used to tell J all the time: "Regret the things you do, not the things you don't." It'd make a great Hallmark card, but my point is, I need to start living that creed.

This mortal probation is about getting things done.

There's a great discussion going on at the Forums, as to the nature of intelligences and level playing fields, and choices.

I think we are ultimately defined by our choices, and it is our choices that get us to the end, no matter where we began.

When I finally do get to the bar of judgement, I think I'd like to say, "Sure, I failed a lot, but it was one hell of a ride, wasn't it?"

I don't want there to be any hanging of my head because there was too much fear and too little doing.

I'm only given so much time and so much opportunity. It's like accrued vacation time, don't you think?

Use it or lose it.

Fuck you.

Yes, you.

You scored as Harry Potter. You are a very passionate and caring person when it comes to the wellness of your friends as well as others. You're very temperamental and sarcastic, and sometimes you'll flow a little bit over to the arrogant and obnoxious side when your temper gets the best of you. But you're bold and daring and will stand up for what you feel is right with bravery. </td> Harry Potter 81% Hermione Granger 75% Bellatrix Lestrange 72% Oliver Wood 69% Neville Longbottom 69% Severus Snape 59% Sirius Black 56% Luna Lovegood 56% Ron Weasley 56% Albus Dumbledore 50% Remus Lupin 50% Lord Voldemort 50% Percy Weasley 50% Draco Malfoy 41% Harry Potter Character Combatibility Test created with QuizFarm.com

Crystal Genelle Frazer's Aliases

Your movie star name: Chocolate Paul

Your fashion designer name is Crystal London

Your socialite name is Crissie Atlanta

Your fly girl / guy name is C Fra

Your detective name is Cat Westport High

Your barfly name is Chocolate Sex On The Beach

Your soap opera name is Genelle Highland Ridge

Your rock star name is Chocolate Car

Your star wars name is Crybai Frajus

Your punk rock band name is The Tired Stapler

why is it 1:30 am before my flight and I am not in bed?

It wasn't an interview.

Mike said it was, but in actuality, it was merely an informal sitdown with my district manager.

He gave me some things to work on and such and hopefully an interview will be forthcoming.

Le sigh.

My interview for the promotion is tomorrow.

I should be in bed...

June 30, 2005, Flight 215 [Non-Stop]
Departing Boston, MA (BOS) at 1:10 PM
Arriving Akron/Canton, OH (CAK) at 2:55 PM
--- Connecting To ---
June 30, 2005, Flight 213 [Non-Stop]
Departing Akron/Canton, OH (CAK) at 6:30 PM
Arriving Atlanta, GA (ATL) at 8:15 PM

July 04, 2005, Flight 338 [Non-Stop]
Departing Atlanta, GA (ATL) at 10:30 AM
Arriving Philadelphia, PA (PHL) at 12:30 PM
--- Connecting To ---
July 04, 2005, Flight 774 [Non-Stop]
Departing Philadelphia, PA (PHL) at 3:15 PM
Arriving Boston, MA (BOS) at 4:37 PM